Ever have a time when you were in need of quiet reflection? Away from work. Away from home. Away from your kids and spouse? Away from life.
That was me today.
Don’t get me wrong, I love my life. Things have been rather chaotic with a lot happening in my life and in the lives of friends and family. In a word, it’s been overwhelming. So instead of facing what has been happening, I have been focusing on work and my family – all things I enjoy and love. What I have not been doing, however, is focusing on me and what I may be needing.
So, today I found some time to just get away from the noise of home, away from the work waiting for me, and away from the needs of my kids and husband. Today, I took some time for myself. What a concept, I know.
I was on the way out the door to the grocery store, but instead of heading out the door immediately, I grabbed my camera and then headed out.
My camera. My friend. The friend I’ve been neglecting for the past while. The friend who got me through so much – brought me back from postpartum depression I suffered after my second child. My friend who kept me company and helped me focus on everything beautiful around me when all seemed overwhelming and dark. My friend who always made me smile as I looked at the images we made together. The amazing captures of nature and the smiles and laughter of my children.
Oh, how I had missed taking photos. I didn’t really realize just how much until I took my camera and stopped at a local park and went for a walk.
Things have been a bit dismal this days. While I keep my head up and keep a smile on my face, things have been rather difficult. Not difficult because of anything that has been happening to me personally. But, it has been heart-wrenching to watch close friends and family go through difficult times. It has been difficult to hear about a friend fighting the good fight against a disease that never seems to give up. It has been difficult watching a close friend be diagnosed with MS and then find out she can’t take the medication she’s been using any longer because her kidneys cannot cope. It’s been challenging to know how difficult it is for these friends. It’s been difficult to watch as friends’ family and friends have been diagnosed and lost battles with diseases. It’s been a struggle to know how to support these friends. I’m just not sure what to do for them. I can be there. I can be an ear. I can be a shoulder. But, is that enough?
So, I took my camera out in hopes to find some solitude in the fresh air, and re-discover the beauty around us. This allows me quiet time to just be present with my thoughts. It allows me a quiet time to reflect on my life and how truly fortunate I am for all I have.
It brings me to focus on the beauty that surrounds me and I was struck by a number of things.
There are so many beautiful flowers blooming in the fall.
The colours of fall are a gift, truly.
Fresh water droplets on plants and leaves are so precious and delicate.
Reflections on the water are stunning in fall.
There is beauty all around us, we just need to find time to take a breath from what we are doing to take it all in and truly enjoy what we see (and hear and smell).
Here are some of my photos from my time of solitude . . .
It is so difficult to watch friends go through these difficult, life-changing times. It is important to remember though, one cannot help others unless they take care of themselves first.
How are you taking care of yourself?
How are you helping to ensure others take care of themselves.